31 for 21 – or not

I’m a horrible 31 for 21 blogger this year. Must be in a funk. There are multiple things to say and multiple ways to say them, but no words. I’m scared. I’m horror-struck and afraid that Elliot is going to get hit very, very hard with H1N1 and there won’t be a damned thing that I can do about it. The city is flooded with sick children, sick adults, sick everyone. I know what an upper respiratory infection does to his system; I know what basic illness does…I do not know yet what this will do. We get stuck in a hospital bed for a week with a cold because of the refusal of fluid. We’ve done pneumonia; we’ve done RSV; we’ve done Influenza A twice. We have not done this and momma is scared.

Many typical children that I know are out for a week. A friend said like a puddle on the couch with tears and tummy aches and fevers spiking at 104+. My E will be in the hospital. It’s a given. I know – there are others like him and many, many other friends whose children will be hit harder than hard. E is not alone. Let’s all pray that it goes away soon.